Just when my soul is enlightened to the point of expelling the heavy burden of condemnation, my own self-awareness diminishes the shield of the gospel until the arrows of the enemy fall back into the deep recesses of my heart.

Therefore let’s also, seeing we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let’s run with perseverance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising its shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 
Hebrews 12:1-2, ESV