My Father in heaven, let me not be half-hearted in my dedication to You. Enlighten my soul to the darkness that lingers within me. I do not want to be chained like a prisoner to the earthly affections I was so fond of before meeting You. The state of disquiet exists when mere religious observance eclipses the happiness of worldly existence or too much happiness in this world taints satisfaction with religion. Those who want both in order to have it all end up with nothing. Keep me in a state of pondering my imperfect desires, Lord. I do not want to straddle the fence. I want to be completely within the borders of Your Kingdom. I do not want to give You half my heart when Your command clearly states that whole-hearted devotion is Your supreme delight. As I give myself to You in total abandon, that peace which surpasses understanding flows through me until the eclipsing power of my divided heart is vanquished. As I live to You, yielding to Your will because You died for me, I realize the truest joy and the effervescent peace Your love offers. Release Your servant from the chains of indecision. Take me to the point in the journey where a decision is not only necessary it is crucial. How do I love You, Lord? Let me ask it of myself daily. Only in that answer will my heart leanings be truly identified. Let me serve You with everything that I am, Lord because You are everything to me. Under the canopy of Joshua 24:15 and the authority of Christ, I bow in prayer.

But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.
Joshua 24:15, NIV