My prayers are wearing thin, Jesus, my LORD. Forgive me for being so tired and worn. I have nothing left to give as the demon of conflict attacks me all day long. There is no fight left in me. What do You do with someone who cannot live the life You gave them? My life is in You for I belong to You. What then do I do with this deep longing in my heart? How do I live to bring You glory when the cloud of sad longing follows me everywhere I go? There is grief in this world. There is misery that haunts happiness. I dream of Your Kingdom and Your majesty is ever before m – A country not tainted by the curse. A place where beauty and peace reign. A place of rest and solitude. A country where the King sits in justice on the throne. When will Your loved ones be free from the weight of these broken-down bodies, O LORD? I anticipate with eager expectation the perfect body You have planned for me. But let me not dwell on things to come, LORD. Help me to live the life You have given me. Empower me to complete the tasks set before me for Your Kingdom’s purpose. I am sorry for my weakness, but grateful that it reminds me You are my strength. Jesus, You are my rock and my safe place. I am running to You, LORD, ready to fall at Your feet. I await Your directions. I look for Your guidance, my Savior. Why would You even want a wretch like me? Because Your love is perfect and unfailing. In me You have created exactly what You needed for such a time as this. May my eyes not distract me by my own inaccurate view of myself. Let me rest in Your love. Empower me to live from Your grace because You are everything to me, Jesus. Under the Word of Ephesians 2:8-9 and the authority of Christ, I pray.
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast.
Ephesians 2:8-9, ESV